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Disappearing Footsteps

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Monday, June 07, 2010

-10:24 PM

I can't believe it is Monday already.Where does the time go?I didn't even know it was June until eariler today.It's all just a blur to me.I have so much to tell you all.I should probally start with Sammie's graduation.I am not sure if i have mentioned him before or not,well he is my best friend Kelly's son.A sweet little boy.He's six years old and on Friday he had his Graduation and school concert.Honestly i hadn't planned on going but when he made Kelly call me to tell me he posted pictures of himself in his suit on facebook to go look and that he was so excitied his girlfriend was coming,well then i melted and just couldn't say no.It was too cute for words.I am glad i went,He did a amazing job and i was so happy to see how happy and proud he was.I have to admit though,i felt alittle awkward being there with Kelly's ex and her brother,But it passed,Because i was there for Sammie.I wish i could say that night went as well,but holy fuck is all i can say.There was a Birthday party for my cousin that night,Something else i had not had any intentions on going too(yeah i am a hermit,sue me)*lol*But between my mother and my aunt hounding me to go,i gave in.It was better then listening to "oh come on you got to come"....."please"...."come with us we won't be there long".So rather then listen to them i said fuck it,threw on my coat and went.Plus i really wanted to get a picture of the dick cake.WORST MISTAKE EVER!!!!!!!!!
So i get there,and i am already at a disadvantage,because i am the only sober person there.The music sucked beyond belief.So i just said hello to a few people i knew,some old friends,family and sat in the corner,staring at the disco ball spinning around,while playing with a toothpick and cheezie.(yes i was that bored)So anyways my cousin Mary comes over to me explaining that she had brought her friend Barry with her,he's shy,rich and looking for a woman,He thinks i am pretty and wants to ask me to dance,but he is afraid i will say no.Between the hoots and giggles from my whole table i explain to her that while i am flattered i myself am not shy,i'm poor as fuck,i am not looking for a man and i can't dance for shit.Once she stops laughing long enough she,like my mother and aunt before her starts to hound and bug the shit out of me.Begging me to just dance with him.Trying to get away,i go outside for a smoke.Out comes Mary starting on me again.I explained to her i did not want to dance with her friend,i thought he was adorable,But i was just not in the mood.She goes on to tell me how rich he is and about all his cars,and that he owns his own house.No mortage owed and he owns a apartment complex in the city.I'm really kind of annoyed at this moment,i say to her"look i just came here to get a picture of the dick cake,I don't want to dance,I don't want any boyfriend's".Then my mom and aunt come out,saying look just dance with the guy that's all we are asking.I finish my cigeratte,go in there walk straight up to him,grab his hand and say "you...come on"(lol)My friend asked me if i really did that...and i assure you i did.He was a pretty good dancer,and i have to admit he had the most beauitful eyes i have ever seen.They were a mix between carmel and hazel.I had never seen anything like it before.Anyways he was really shy so i tried to calm him down alittle by making small talk while dancing.Seemed to work.Once we were done dancing he asked me to go and sit with him.I wanted to say no and get the hell out of there,But i agreed and sat with him.I snuck in a dirty look to my family when he'd turn away.Everyone got up and left me there,I could of killed them.Here i sat,alone with a shy drunk guy,trying to make conversation.I escused myself to go get a few pictures and have another smoke.When i got back i seen my mom and aunt were leaving,I ran over to find out what was going on,Mom then said they were going to leave me with Barry and come back and get me,they were going home...."like the fuck",I gasped."I'm coming with you guys..you are not leaving me here...all i wanted was to stay home tonight,in my pajama's,and watch the hockey game"I went to say goodbye to Barry and he asked me why i was leaving,that the night was still young,I told him it was nice to meet him but i really had to be going,he then proceeded to tell me that my cousin Mary had given him my number and he'd like to call me sometime.I kind of stood there in shock for a minute,then left.All the while walking down the parking lot curseing my head off.I couldn't believe she did that.So much for just one dance,my mom and aunt were in the knots laughing.
I got home to have two missed calls on my phone,He hadn't even given me a chance to get home before calling.I told my mom straight up i was not answering him and she said how sweet he seemed and what a sin it was.I was so mad,all they so called wanted was me to dance with the guy,i did that and still they weren't happy.What do people expect?Yes,i know i am a hermit and i know i cancel on my friends all the time and never want to go anywhere,But really who am i hurting?I am happy and content.I don't want a relationship,I like being by myself.But still people always want to hook me up,introduce me to there single friends...i feel like screaming "enough already...just fuck off".Its nuts,i tell ya.
So on to the rest of my story,Saturday came,he had called me half a dozen times,my mom begged me to just talk to him,so i answered the phone.He told me he was in town and wanted me to go for a coffee,I felt on the spot so i said okay...i got dressed and sat out on my porch waiting,The next thing i know this orange mustang pulls up.We went to Tim Hortons where i passed him twenty dollars for our coffee's,he was kind of rude to the girl at the drive thru,once he pulled in to park he took my change and put it in his pocket,i just stared blankly....i just wanted to go home,i didin't even want to be there,so i drank my coffee and hardly said two words,He started talking and would not shut the hell up.I wanted to kick him in the face.He just proved to be a bigger moron,everytime he opened his mouth.Get this...he doesn't have "any time" for animals,they're okay when they're small and have no fur,but once they get bigger and start to shed he hates them.Thankfully i love animals,because i was with a real pig.And Oh and my favourite,it is okay to have a dog in his opinion,but you need to keep it outside,At all times.All i could do was roll my eyes.Then he seemed to shut up for a moment long enough to drink until he started up about what he does for a living and about everything he has,meanwhile i am thinking in my head"who givres a fuck?"He loves to make money,and he will do anything to make it,Now that i have no doubt,because within ten minutes he's managed to pocket eighteen dollars off me.While he continues to make his obnoxious opinions on a varitity of topics.Once relationships and marriage came up i knew it was my time to shine,so then i started to tell him how I didin't want a relationship,I would never get married again (which i wasnt lieing) but i also added the exttra bonus of attempting to act like a bitch with a shitty attitude.He started up with the whole crap about how i just havent met the right guy and that i need to let people in and have faith,still looking around i said yeah,whatever well that's my problem and i hate men.I think i made him feel awkward,which was great,and told him i should be getting home,He started the car and just before getting to my street started driving fast,screeching his tires,showing off like a damn fool and bragging about his stupid car."Its a damn pummpkin with wheels".Like wtf?Right before i got out he smiled said he had a great time and would be talking to me soon.I just said "yeah" and got the hell out of the car.I figured maybe he would be happy to be rid of me,But the damn idiot hasn't stopped calling and texting since.
I flipped at my mom after i told her what i just finished telling all of you.She apolgised and promised to give me a break and i think she finally understands and assured me that she will not ask me to do anything like that again.She just would like to see me meet a nice guy.I don't need to meet a nice guy,I don't want to meet a nice guy.I am happy the way i am.
As if all of that wasn't enough,Now i have someone else who wants to annoy me.It seems i am getting emails from some girl,who claims to know Chris.She's been telling me things about him and asking lots of questions.She says she used to date him and pretty much wants to warn me about what a idiot he is.Like i need a complete stranger to tell me that.I don't understand it.I liked the guy,I put myself out there,I wanted to be his friend and he wanted to be a douche,so i got over it,and i don't need his friendship.I caught him lieing,on more then one occasion.I gave him chance after chance and seems like all i've brought on myself since meeting him is drama.So i'm happy to just have him gone now.Yet i have to be bothered by people i don't know,telling me things i already do know.
The weather is gross.It's so hot and muggy out,I had a shower and i still feel sticky,it's been raining the whole day.I was hoping maybe we'd have some thunder and lighting,But no such luck.

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The Chesire Cat disappeared leaving its grin to last.