Disappearing Footsteps
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-12:16 PM
Yesterday was pretty amusing to say the least.I had my second meeting with my psychiatrist.(yes,i see a psychiatrist)I'm not asshamed,Because atleast fifty percent of people see one,and if not,they probally need too (lol)
The reason why i am seeing a doctor is because i suffer from anixety and panic attacks.I have suffered from both for as long as i can remember.I do pretty well dealing with it,But there's not shame in getting alittle help either.It's not my first time seeing a psychiatrist,actually i've seen several.But they were all assholes.(pardon my french)I really like this guy.He look's just like Dr.Drew.He's pretty amazing!He's very easy to talk to,and a good listener too.I really like him.
We had a good laugh at my session yesterday.He actually had me doing yoga in his office.At first i found it hard to consentrate,with my peaking through one eye at him and school girl giggling.But once i actually relaxed and did it proferally,i found it very affective.It was really funny because he asked me to go to "my happy place" without hesitation i closed my eyes and went there...after a few seconds of silence i opened my eyes to him staring at me awaitng my responce.Alittle puz zled i waited until asked"well where is this happy place?" I then responced..."oh...i'm sorry....in bed with robert pattinson"One thing you have to know is my doctor is what i would like to call very proper and polite.A very meak and mild type man,So the look on his face was priceless. Come to think of it,i wish i had taken out my camera phone and snapped a picture.
Thursday is my big day.the big old 24.It may sound ironic but i am actually dreadng it.They say you're only as old as you feel....well if you flipped the 24 around,that's how old i feel.I think its normal to feel that way though after your 19th.I have nothing planned...no big plans or dinner dates r even parties,Just another day in my opition.
As much as i would love to stay here and write about the million thoughts going through my head,I really must get going.My dog is staring me down wanting me to read the thoughts in her head which include"get off your ass and take me for a walk"So i'm off.I hope you all have a great day!
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The Chesire Cat disappeared leaving its grin to last.
The Chesire Cat disappeared leaving its grin to last.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
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-5:05 PM
Welcome to my blog.I should probally start off by telling you about little old me.Well my name is Alice and i am twenty four years old,From a small city in Newfoundland,Canada.
If i had to use three words to describe myself i'd have to say i am average,dorky and awkward.There's nothing very special about me or anything that really makes me stand out in a crowd,But i am completly okay with that.I am very open minded and love to meet new people.I tend to be alittle out spoken at times and also have a very dry sense of humor,so i can be difficult to read sometimes,But usually i am joking...i tend to never take myself or anything else for that matter too seriously.
I have a pretty amazing life though.I've seen and been through alot in my twenty four years,Probally alot more then i should.But i do not regret a single moment of it.I believe everything happens for a reason(i know that sounds clache)But it's true.I've come to realize that everyone of life's moments,Good or bad,reflects on the person you are suppose to be.You learn things not only about life,but also yourself and only then can you really become the person you're meant to be.Because honestly if you can not define yourself,how can you expect anyone else to?
I have many interests.I'm a very old fashioned kind of girl.I've often said i feel like i should of been born in another time.I love old movies and music.
Music is my life.There's not too many places i don't go without my Ipod.I have everything on there from Van Morrison to Lady Gaga.
Movies and tv are also a big part of my life also.I've wanted to be an actress for as long as i can remember.So i have a real apperciation for the art.Some of my favourite actors included:Robert Pattinson,Hugh Laurie,Jack Nicholson,James Dean,and Johnny Depp.I think they are all brilliant and talented actors.That's not saying they're not the biggest bunch of assholes you'd ever want to meet,But they seem pretty amazing.I don't know them,nor have i ever even met or seen them in person,so i really can't say.
I love my family and my friends.I have an amazing relationship with my parents.They are two of the strongest people i know.Espicelly my mother.She is my rock.I could only dream of becoming half of the woman she is.
Another woman in my life is also means the world to me is my best friend Sophia.She is the true definition of strength and beauty.She works in the adult entertaiment business,alot of people probally know her as one of Jenna Jameson's contract girls.But that is not all she is.She's an amazing mother,with two of the most beauitful,thoughtful little girls i have ever had the privallage of knowing.There are so many wonderful things about this girl i honestly wouldn't even know where to begin.She has been there for me for some pretty difficult times in my life and she has shown me that there is good in people,it's easy to see if you look.
Well i guess i have rambled enough for one day.It's not like i am going to have thousands of people reading this anyways.I'll be lucky if i get five or six hits.Either way make sure to stay tuned for more ramblings on things that don't matter. (lol)
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The Chesire Cat disappeared leaving its grin to last.
The Chesire Cat disappeared leaving its grin to last.
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