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-7:23 PM

have you ever had one of those days where you wish you hadn't even bothered to get out of bed?I've heard alot of people talk about them,But i could never really say i have had one myself,Well that would be until yesterday morning.
I was sceduled to see my psychrist at nine o clock yesterday morning.I was actually feeling great on the way there,alittle excited to tell him that i had not had a panic attack since we last seen each other.I spoke too soon i guess.When i arrived there were only a few people in the office,which was great.Myself,a older lady and a man.After i checked in i sat down waiting patiently to be called,when the man who was sat to my left got up and went up to the receptionist and started freaking out at her,telling her he has been there for a hour and a half and wanted to know when he would be seen,she proceed to explain to him he hadn't even checked in.Well up she went he flipped completely out screaming "You seen me sitting here and didn't bother to even fucking ask what the hell i was doing there,do i look like a fucking idiot who just comes in and sits down for a hour and a half for no reason you fucking moron?"His face was red and i honestly thought the guy was going to throw something at her.She checked him in and he sat back down next to me swearing his head off and smacking his hands together.I'm thankful i only had to listen for a few moments before my doctor came out to get me,i jumped up with relief,although i felt alittle bad leaving the older lady out there with him herself.She looked terrified,not that i blame her.
I was foolish to think that was the worst thing that was going to happen to me that day,because it went from bad to worse.Once i was finished up with the doctor,I had descided to take the stairs because there was a lady with two strollers,with screaming kids and even though the building is brnad new and so called advanced the elvator is tiny.So i went about my business.As soon as i turned the corner in the stairway i seen this guy coming towards me,breathless and sweating with this huge red book,I didn't reconize what it was at first but he proceed to back me into the corner a wild look in his eyes repeating over and over to me"I've done bad things,I've done some very bad things"My first thought was oh my god,this guy is going to rape me,i felt my pulse racking and alittle dizzy.When i looked down i seen huge gold lettering on his book "HOLY BIBLE",i slipped away from him while walking backwards down the stairs,trying to appear calm telling him it was okay.What he said after that i could not even guess.It was a blur,i just nodded my head agreeing.All i could make out from the mumbles was "I've done bad things,But i love God and i love life and i am not going to change it my god is with me"I smiled briefly before turning around and running the hell out of there,and i didn't look back.I got in the car,locked the doors and tried to calm myself.I was shaking so hard.So it should be no surprise to any of you i went into a panic attack.Looking back right now,all i can say is WTF,and you can bet your ass i said that a few dozen times,i came home and just fell in the bed and went to sleep.I woke up at like six o clock and got a hot shower to try and clear my head,i watched some tv and believe it or not went back to bed,i slept the whole night too.
I feel much better today.I went out and picked up all these candle's at this new store in the mall.And also some new of that Victoria Secret body wash in "Honey Dew" and "Cotton Candy",I'm going to light them and get a nice bubble bath tonight.They spell really good and the candle holders are really pretty.So between a good old Van Morrison cd,my candle's and bubble bath i am set.
I hope you all have a great weekend,and if any of you see a man with a bible the size of your head,well then i suggest you run really fast.Alright,take it easy,I'm out!

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DOB:
Blue Eyes
5'1''
Often Found Daydreaming
Gets Lost In The Music
Easily Amused
Stubborn
Doesn't Believe In Regret
Only Child
Curses Way Too Much
Hates Shopping
Gets Lost In The Music
Sometimes Experiences Road Rage
Clumsy
Never Makes The Same Mistake Twice
Has Panic Attacks
Thinks Scruff Is Sexy
Wishs Upon Stars
Never Holds A Grudge
Doesn't Drink
Plans To Go To England Someday
A Smoker
Scared Of Spiders
Dresses Up Every Halloween
Loves Cuddling
Not A Phone Person
Believes In Soulmates
Abit Of A Hermit
Thinks Seafood is Yuck
Has A High Pain Tolerance
Nonmaterialistic
Loves Action Movies
Has The Worst Attention Span
Admires Those Who Inspre Others
Can Drive A Stick
Hates My Boobs
No Patience For Moron Drivers
Wants To Shag Robert Pattinson
Animal Lover
A Night Owl
Feels Awkward In A Dress
Doesn't Wear Much Makeup
Believes In Ghosts
Stronger Then I Look
Not Afraid To Admit When I Am Wrong
Ambidextrous
Doesn't Kiss And Tell



"Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today"

"People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built."

"But inside, I'm going, 'Oh my God, is my zipper up? Do I have a booger in my nose?' That's my inner monologue"

“A lot of things that happened [in the past] would have broken anybody else. I was able to survive. That's all that really matters.”

"If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough"